Earlier today I had a catchup sesh with my ex after so long. We were talking about things and then suddenly he said he's getting married or at least engaged next year. You know when you broke up with somebody, although both of you guys have moved on there's this thing called the race where you show to each other how better you guys' lives are. So when he told me about getting married, I was suddenly taken aback and I got pissed off and moody, that he had to cool me down. I don't know why I felt that way but I guess it's because my studies are going down and so do my boyfriend's and that means there's still a looong long way to go before we can decide to settle down. I felt like I'm left behind and losing. I hate feeling like crap.
And then he said he was just joking around. Stupid him I almost told (read: forced) my boyfriend to marry me this year.