I never knew something you don't think about could bother you at the very same time. As crazy as it sounds, is as cray cray as how my mind is right now. I've never not trusted myself this much, but at the same time I'm scripting possible lines to stand up for myself in my mind. I knew I couldn't trust myself since the beginning, but I gave myself a try, and at some point I thought I succeeded.
I was wrong.
I knew I was not capable of doing this. Accepting the taste of innocence, wearing the mask of happiness, putting my head in the clouds, acting sugar and spice and everything nice. No.
I mean yes I can do that despite how broken my heart, my mind and my everything are, but I can't keep doing it.