We have just recently expanded our little group of friends and to be honest, they feel like home already. Not seeing their names pop up on my phone screen for a day makes my day feel incomplete, like something is really wrong. And I have apologised to a friend I lost earlier this year. God knows how glad I am now, not that we are friends again, but it's because I know that we are not in a bad state anymore. How do you walk pass someone and totally ignore their presence there? Even if it's a stranger, at least you carve a nice smile on your face. Ignoring the one who you once called a best friend, like they are just a wind in the surrounding never feels right.
And knowing that someone you've been friends with since you were seven years young, throw you away like you're just a candy wrap they don't need anymore, really fucking hurts. I just realized that one of my best best best friends has blocked me on whatsapp. No wonder I couldn't reach her through anything. She really didn't want me anymore. Wow really? My fault is really that big? What did I even do?
Adding one more thing to my pet peeves.
People hating people without stating what they did wrong. That "go figure" attitude is really making my head ache.