My life has gotten better, or at least I feel better. I know I'm taking the wrong way to feel good about my life. I've got some people (best friends, I gotta say) disagreeing and telling me that what I'm doing is not the right thing to do. I know. I might've chosen the wrong person, but who the hell knows right. I also know what risks I'm taking. I can picture what could happen in the future. How I'd be hurt or how I'd regret of my current crazy decision.